Unexpected Moments

Yesterday Taylor came home from her friend's house and it was just me and her at home in the kitchen.  I was finishing up dinner and waiting for everyone else to come home.  She sat down at the kitchen island and asked me when my mom died.  I told her she died while I was sleeping in the middle of the night.  She thought for a moment and asked a few more things like if anyone was there when she died and where her body was before she was buried.  She was really thinking and asked me some very deep questions. After a little more thought she said,  "I bet Heavenly Father just needed her too much to let her stay...  Because you know that is what I think He does when he needs people, He lets them die."  I got a little teary eyed during her conversation.  She is the only one of my children that talks about Grandma Diane on a fairly regular basis so I wasn't surprised that she was talking about it.  I was just taken back at the level of thought she had to say those things.  When she saw my tears she said that she was sorry for making me sad and said, "I bet you miss her a lot."  I explained to Taylor that I wasn't sad but that I was happy because Heavenly Father gave me her and Braden, Ella, and Lily to be a Mom.  She got down off the stool and gave me a big hug and said she was happy that she was mine too.  Taylor used to ask me a lot why my mom had to die.  I always tell her I don't know.  After thinking last night before bed about the conversation I had with her I thought of it this way.  I know that if it had to happen that way to have the life I have been given I would go through it over and over again in a heartbeat.  The hardest thing I learned 20 years ago is that life goes on.  Now, looking back, the greatest blessing is that life goes on.  I'm grateful to Taylor for an unexpected moment and perspective that I never want to forget!